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okay, my last entry was a tad crazy. but in a way it was good to think about that stuff. i should probably write about the last couple of day's for me. i went to jiffy lube, changed my oil and what not and then went straight to the airport to pick up kate. she had been in italy and england and fucking germany. nuts well parking at the airport sucked. it took me forever to find parking. i finally did and somehow i found kate in the rush of international passengers. we drove around and then went to my house. then later we went to her moms house and tried to find her key, that was hidden in the bushes somewhere. we couldn't find it. so kate ended up staying at my house. but she was kind of peeved and restless. i guess she just wanted to go home or something. so the next day she calls her sister and we go and get the key. it turns out kate's sister is not who i thought she was. i should probably explain to people who don't know me. but kate was my 3rd roommate in college. and the only one i keep in contact with of those 3 roommates. anyway, her sister is this girl i had a class with. see, i've known kate for years and i've never met her sister or mother or brother. she was estranged from them for a long time. well i knew of kate's sister. i knew kate didn't like her. and recently i found out she worked at the tanning salon that i went to a lot. well, i assumed that the girl who's a bitch to me everytime i go must be kate's sister. but no, it's the girl from my spanish class, the girl who came to hallmark a lot when i worked there. she's the girl who's overly nice to me, everytime i see her. how fucking ironic. i was really weirded out by finally figuring out who kate's sister was. mostly, because i had SO many clues before. i remember hearing kate's last name being called out in class before and i thought about it for a second but forgot later. so many clues. i'm really intrigued by coincidences and irony. anyway, so kate and i hung out last night. we got really wasted. i forgot what it was like to get fucked up with kate. i mean back then i thought it was funny. this time it sucked. kate's very abrupt and confrontational when she's drunk. and it wasn't very fun for me. she even confronted me about it. i think she knew i was weirded out by it all. i think that may have to do with my emotional entry last night. it was just such a shock for me. i've always held kate in the highest regard and then all of a sudden i found out, i can't have fun with her when i'm drunk/high anymore. after awhile she fell asleep (we had been on since 8am and getting fucked up since 2pm.) i went outside to smoke more, i came back in and watched tv for 3 or 4 hours. i woke her up when jay leno started. i told her that hillary clinton was on tv. she likes her and she likes jay leno. i watched it and she fell back asleep. she was jetlagged. after awhile i decided that i needed to get out of that house. probably because i was high, all i could think about is who kate's sister is, how my feelings about kate didn't feel the same and how she knew i was weirded out. the thought of my room and my bed seemed like paradise to me. so i drove, which was stupid... but i had to get out. but it was only a 3 minute drive so i got home in one piece. but all i could think of was that "the jiffylube guy kept saying that some of my lights were out' and because i didn't want to be late to pick up kate, i told him i'd be back another day. and what if a cop pulls me over because my lights are dim or out or i don't even know what" no one pulled me over. tonight i go return the movie we rented yesterday and i rent two other movies. i get in my car and head home. there's a cop behind me. and i see him and for some reason i had this FEELING he would pull me over. so i'm extra careful about everything. i look in my rear view mirror 2 seconds later. cop lights. this is my first time being pulled over so i'm extra paranoid. anyway my tail lights were out. you'd think the jiffylube guy would tell me that MY TAIL LIGHTS were the ones out. you'd think he'd tell me to come back as soon as possible? but he didn't. so the cop was really nice and let me go. but he made me drive back with my hazards on; so that no one crashed into me. but it felt like when you're a kid and you've been bad in class and your teacher is like go stand in the corner and make everybody look at your sorry ass! so i drove home like an idiot with my hazards on. fun. and i was too nervous to watch my movies so i just called angela and talked to her for awhile.
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